There was a sudden, perhaps an unintentional opinion, saying, "It seems that Indonesia has to become a secular country for good." Well, it ridiculously tickled me.

It all came from this talking point ...

... to this red-circled argument.

I've been thinking about this issue on my own. The relation between God and humans is a very personal matter. 他人は関係ない。 In certain conditions consisting of several people, the first principle in Pancasila (Belief in one and only God; Ketuhanan Yang Maha Esa) could mean: we apply religion-based principles in every element of our life. Some religion-based principles are often used to defend one's opinion without appreciating the fact that the government recognizes six official religions. The 'six religions' means that Indonesia could have various religion-based principles, depending on the followers of a (or some) religion(s) itself. This problem will never reach its end if people are being stubborn. If people don't read books. If they won't open their mind. If they won't discuss the things and exchange thoughts. I honestly have no idea at all about this ending.

I don't have the power to change a single thing. I personally think that it's fine to be secular. I said that the relation between God and humans is a very personal matter, didn't I? It has nothing to do with other people after all. In the end, there's no need to make Indonesia become secular. I can't, and I think neither can you. However, a person's right to choose to become secular matters. I love to see a person as an individual human being, as himself or herself or both, who has rights, and is not a part of any constructed group.

So, what if Indonesia became a secular country? I have no idea because it would never happen anyway. I let you consider it by yourself.

Worth reading: http://www.thejakartapost.com/news/2010/05/04/letter-indonesia-not-a-secular-country.html

By The Grace of God Circumstance Thoughts

10:33 PM

A friend of mine said, "Dari dua jam kuliah Filsafat Timur, penjelasan dosen yang masuk otak cuma bahwa  pernikahan adalah kebahagiaan konseptual. Adanya rasa takut dan tidak nyaman dengan kesendirian membuat seseorang bersedia mengikat dirinya dengan orang lain." In short, she got a 気になった事 from her Eastern Philosophy class saying that the marriage is none other than a conceptual happiness. People are afraid of being single, so they give themselves willingly to someone in a union called marriage.

Hmm ... mmkay, I think I get the point.

When I got home a few days ago, I was trapped in an unavoidable conversation with my aunts. I don't (or simply won't) remember what exactly the chit-chat was. In the middle of the talk, I said that I don't want to get married and my aunts immediately, angrily, confusedly, cut me and said, "あかん!" LoL They condemned my unfavorable (they think so) opinion. Geez, I felt like being sued. Such Easterns, I thought. But I didn't even bother to defend my opinion in the end because I'd convinced myself to do what I believe is right. I'm a contrarian in the family after all.

Eh, I have to warn you something first. Let's not talk about pernikahan merupakan perintah agama or marriage is one of God's commands or something like that. I want separation here. 笑笑

Well, first of all, I should be grateful for being raised in a family who values higher education, so I don't have to deal with my aunts saying, "You have to marry a rich man." It means they know well that I'll make my own money somehow. They only demand me to marry someone and bear children. But do they have to interfere in my personal life? Maybe yes. Maybe no. And I choose the last. Teehee~ Sorry, Aunties!

For now, I'm only thinking about attaining even higher education and doing things I desire as well as making money. If we have money, we don't have to get married. At least, that's what I believe. 少なくとも、それがあたしの信じること。

My life goal is very simple. A cliché. A bit naïve perhaps. Owning complete, original series of One Piece comics and animations, and spending my money on its merchandise and stuffs like the fuck I want are my dreams (actually I also want to buy so many books, have my private fancy library, go around the world, say "I'll win you" to price tags, get rid of famine in certain places, make a change (angel-mood) and so on so on so on..........). In short, having one quadrillion pennies in my bank account. That's why I have to be one of those rich bastards (and of course being the very top among them) who go through life without worrying about money. あら、NGワード言っちゃってごめん。._. For such a goal, I don't need to be tied up with someone. I want a freedom to do what I please.

HOWEVER

I can't guarantee that I will be doing things so smoothly. The future ... it just has a strange, magical, unpredictable power to change itself. Even with hi-techs nowadays. If I'm not responsible, I'll be screwed. Besides, there are so many possibilities in every choice. By marrying someone, perhaps, I still can gain my own freedom. I could have a free thinker, a faithful learner, maybe a writer, or even a simple, ordinary human being as my partner. He (well, or she) could be the first one supporting my passion. But there could be also a misfortune haunting me in case I'm married to wrong person or I can't take control. So, neither my aunts nor I have wrong belief and viewpoint. We're even!

I also have one more 気になった事 regarding this marriage thing (eh, why am I so formal?). I don't have time to count how many friends of mine who have gotten married young. There are so many, I guess. Or let's just talk about a much simpler matter; friends of mine who are always in relationship(s). Apparently there are still many people around me who value the 'eros' one so much, even if yes that's their own choice anyway. あたしには関係ないから。 Eheheh~

The case above got me questioning myself, have I gone too far from my own circumstances? I know there are a lot of women who feel that it's totally fine to never get married. I'm just the 84728946th female who thinks about freedom, money, and hobbies. But not here, not in my surroundings. I need to escape. Eeeh, I'm exaggerating and out of topic. But what I want to say is, people have varied. It's okay to do what you want to do or not to do what you don't want to do. あなたとあたしとは別の人間だから。





Revelation:
By going to 'this' particular university and having 'these' kinds of friends, I came up with all the thoughts. What you learn, who you get along with, that's what makes you who you are now. 笑笑 Right, right, thanks to them.

Circumstance Thoughts

1:14 PM

Is there standard ordering when I want to use both question mark and exclamation point together? What is the difference between colon and semicolon? How to even use a hyphen? Where should I put commas in a sentence? Do they even matter? 最近気になるから。

I always want to write a perfect writing but I do flaws in the end, either grammatical errors or punctuation mistakes. Both in English and Bahasa Indonesia. Or even in 日本語. As long as we can digest the meaning, imperfect writing has nothing to do with. We don't have to mind them in daily conversation anyway. It's not like the comma, dash, and period should be spoken anyway. We don't say it, "capital H ey comma please throw me that red ball exclamation point" or "capital C an capital I help you comma capital S ir question mark" anyway. We simply say, "hey please throw me that red ball" and "can i help you sir" which will be like, "Hey, please throw me that red ball!" and "Can I help you, Sir?" in the written form.

Anyway, the paragraph above doesn't appoint what I want to say at all. Hahahaha. What I really want to say is ... that now I realized I've written tons of pointless babbles for the past five years. I feel like a teen. I was a teen. I mean, I hate teenagers. I hate myself who acted like a teen. Eh, however I had to pass this stage whether I like it or not. Eh, but I think I liked and enjoyed this stage because I sure acted like a teenager. My previous posts prove it so mockingly. I really want to erase them (I actually have deleted some super-extra-ultra-embarrassing posts) and start all over again. But what's the point? Who do I want to impress? Well, I made mistakes, I was disgusting and silly, but ... no buts. I admit it. Tch.


See? I have an issue with this "being a teenager" thing.

Language Thoughts

12:00 AM

I'm a normal human who will eventually die. But, if only one of them can fall in love with me, I guess I will die more peacefully.

12. Beberapa tahun ini, saya sedang jatuh cinta sama (re: suka stalking) tiga orang yang gak tau wujudnya kayak apa, soalnya saya kagum sama mereka lewat tulisannya; entah itu dari ketepatan EYD maupun esensinya. :')
34. Bicara soal fakta nomor 12, tiga orang itu adalah seorang role-player Bleach, seorang author di fanciction(dot)net, dan seorang blogger. Hohoho~

... were what I've written for "20+++ Fakta Tentang Saya" on November 19th, 2014. (WHICH has been deleted because now I think it sounds really silly) But when I said 'beberapa tahun ini', I meant it. I really did.

If you read/watch Nana, there's one character named Nana Komatsu who has trouble with having 'falling in love at first sight all the time' habit, isn't it? Well, I have that habit, too. I always immediately fall for a writer who can make my heart beat faster just simply by their style of writing. Sex doesn't matter. I don't mind if the writer is a male or a female. I love them. The writing is all that matters.

This 'seorang role-player Bleach' is one of the writers I love who has been doing role-play on Twitter for almost five years. He/she is really kind yet unreachable. He/she has a countless plot idea for role-playing and his/her style is so impressive. He/she can interact very well both in English and Bahasa Indonesia. I fell in love with his/her writing ideas. 完璧だと思う。I named him/her 'The Flawless One' eheheh~

'Seorang author di fanfiction(dot)net' is a male. I'm quite certain because I have done a research about him. Haha. At first, I didn't believe the fact that despite being a male, he has a damn good writing style with perfect Ejaan yang Disempurnakan (I mean, there's stereotype about that already and I rarely find a male who has a concern for punctuation things). The ideas of his stories are also very clever. I fell in love with the fanfictions he has been writing so that's how I end up loving him this much. I named him 'Blue Rose' eheheh~ Speaking of which, I found a new love I'd fallen for, for almost a year. She's a fanfiction writer, too. This time a female. I reaaaaaaaallyyyyyy love her. She's the best. Hahaha. I call her 'Purple Rose' :3

And lastly, what I do now is blogging so there's no way I don't have my favorite blogger. Hehe. 'Seorang blogger' is the most influential person for me to keep writing. I fell in love with this person's thoughts. I refuse to lose. I want to get better so I can surpass this person ... one day. I can't describe this person any further because, perhaps, this person is too crucial. I named this person 'The Holy One'  or simply 'This Person' eheheh~ (♂? ♀? I clearly know but I won't reveal it here)

I'm a normal human who will eventually die. But, if only one of them can fall in love with me, I guess I will die more peacefully. Like what has been said....

Love Quotes Random

12:20 PM

This particular 元クラスメイト is a boy in his 20s who loves to take selfies. Not like I care, though. But, still, this phenomenon (LoL) is quite interesting to be posted here. Well, he added me as his LINE friend about a year ago. I bet he knew my account from 'that' group. When he posted about his 'Weight Loss' and 'Diet Plans' I was like, "Oh, pretty boy. 相変わらずですね。" (Ehhh, however everyone has their own right to do whatever they want to do) I didn't mind at all. 関係ないから。But, when I discovered that he always changes his profile picture, his full face taken by his own, like every single day, I started to get irritated. I mean, you litter on my timeline, idiot.

Apparently, he also loves to share his love-hate relationship shamelessly, at least once a day. If I'm not lucky enough, I have to roll my eyes at his vexatious babble four times a day. It's so damn annoying. Reading those pointless, worthless statuses is a waste of time. I need to stop it. So today I decided to hide him from my timeline. Hahahaha. What a fool I am, I should've done that yearsssss ago.

Oh, oh! I forgot to mention that his grammar really sucksssss. How can he be so confident of every wrong sentence he wrote? But that's none of my business. I know.














This is time for my alter ego..........

Man, he's an actor. Seeing his timeline always keeps me entertained. Good material to be made fun of.

If the said person reads this, sorry, I'm not sorry. This is my opinion. You can give your opinion about me as well. Once again, it's not like I care. Everyone is free to speak out.

Rants Story

5:10 AM

大嫌いけどやっぱり大嫌い．．．じゃない。あたしには関係ないから。でも、そう言われてもちょっと気になちゃった。「This Particular 女」はきれいでボディーがいい。まるでモデルみたい。そんな事なんてあたしはよく知ってる。気になった事はね…「This Particular 女」の態度だ。なぜって聞かれたら一言では難しいｗｗ　第一印象は「ちょっと悪そうなところが嫌だ」だった。

つづく

Pointless Craziness Random Thoughts

1:27 PM

Rise and fall

Silver moon tide erased my foot prints

Then I picked up broken scales

Stuck them to my tail

Ah

If love truly makes you blind

Then I guess

There is no need

There is no need to see

I’ll trade my eyes

So you can see for me

Lulala lulalila

Stay with me

You will never be sad

I

I will embrace

Embrace your bubbles your fluids

And keep you warm

Then

I will squeeze out

Squeeze out your germs your spore your viruses

I

I will embrace

Embrace your membranes your bones

And keep you cool

Then

I will squeeze out

Squeeze out your evil your grim and your woe

Transform myself

Once and for all

Sink into the tub

Reborn

Reform

Twist my legs to one and mind to none

Tell me tell me

What do you see

In the mirror that’s covered in chalky steam

Touch me touch me

Kiss me to sleep

Cut me open and give me gills

So I can breathe

With tweezers and nippers

Trim off my fins

And forever I’ll be yours

I won’t fight or make you cry

Whatever you need

Whenever you need

I’ll be by your side

And then I gave you my eyes

To see all the colours

And then I gave you my ears

To hear all the sirens

And then I gave you my heart

To fill in the emptiness in your chest

And then I gave you my brain

So that you can learn to love

Tell me tell me

What do you see

In the water that’s clinging onto my skin

Cut me cut me

Please make it deep

If I’m covered in scars

Will you look at me

Kiss me kiss me

Don’t leave me be

I’m a bathtub mermaid

I cannot swim but only sing

Just pull the plug

Flush down all our memories

Into the sea

The image doesn't belong to me.

Lyrics Mili

12:11 PM

インドネシア人の知らないインドネシア語 or The Indonesian The Indonesians Don't Know or Bahasa Indonesia yang Orang Indonesia Nggak Tahu....

I don't own this picture. I randomly took it from Google because I didn't have time for 撮影 in the bus.

I came up with this thought when I was on my way home yesterday. Oh, I fuckin finished my finals, by the way. Heaven! X3

Alright. Back to the topic, shall we?

Apparently many people in this country can't distinguish the using of 'di' whether it should be combined or separated. In Bahasa Indonesia, 'di' as a preposition means in/on/at and MUST be separated from the following word. For example, the using of 'di' in di rumah (at home). This 'di' can also be combined with the following word if passive voice is the case. Dimakan (to be eaten), dijual (to be sold), and dipenjara (to be jailed) are examples of this must-be-combined 'di'. 

I've learned about this grammar rule since I was in elementary school even. But why do I still see so many errors in using this 'di' in my daily life? Yesterday I went home by bus and because I'm an observer, I enjoyed paying attention to some outdoor advertising and billboard signs along the way. I found so many that said, "DI JUAL TANAH DAN RUMAH" (HOUSE FOR SALE), "TAMBAL BAN DISINI" (TIRE REPAIR SERVICE HERE), and all that. Guys, you wrote them wrong! I'm disappointed. LoL But, seriously, it's disappointing. The first one should be "DIJUAL TANAH DAN RUMAH" and the last one should be "TAMBAL BAN DI SINI" aaakh. The words are all Bahasa Indonesia, you guys are Indonesians, but why couldn't you do it right?

Well, my hypothesis is ... regardless of whether they know the rule or not, spoken language is far more popular and is widespread here in Indonesia, so they give zero fuck about the rule as long as it SOUNDS right.

It also might answer the "all about general lack of interest in reading books" questions in Indonesia (even though I haven't tried to do serious research about the percentage yet, but my feeling says so haha).

HOWEVER

This grammar rule thing doesn't affect people's daily life directly. It has nothing to do at all with some people even. This is simply my personal opinion, my thought. My perspective on this issue may be different from others'. I mean, this is my own space to prattle, isn't it?

Again, I overthought unnecessary thing.

Language Random Thoughts

10:12 AM