A friend of mine said, "Dari dua jam kuliah Filsafat Timur, penjelasan dosen yang masuk otak cuma bahwa pernikahan adalah kebahagiaan konseptual. Adanya rasa takut dan tidak nyaman dengan kesendirian membuat seseorang bersedia mengikat dirinya dengan orang lain." In short, she got a 気になった事 from her Eastern Philosophy class saying that the marriage is none other than a conceptual happiness. People are afraid of being single, so they give themselves willingly to someone in a union called marriage.
Hmm ... mmkay, I think I get the point.
When I got home a few days ago, I was trapped in an unavoidable conversation with my aunts. I don't (or simply won't) remember what exactly the chit-chat was. In the middle of the talk, I said that I don't want to get married and my aunts immediately, angrily, confusedly, cut me and said, "あかん!" LoL They condemned my unfavorable (they think so) opinion. Geez, I felt like being sued. Such Easterns, I thought. But I didn't even bother to defend my opinion in the end because I'd convinced myself to do what I believe is right. I'm a contrarian in the family after all.
Eh, I have to warn you something first. Let's not talk about pernikahan merupakan perintah agama or marriage is one of God's commands or something like that. I want separation here. 笑笑
Well, first of all, I should be grateful for being raised in a family who values higher education, so I don't have to deal with my aunts saying, "You have to marry a rich man." It means they know well that I'll make my own money somehow. They only demand me to marry someone and bear children. But do they have to interfere in my personal life? Maybe yes. Maybe no. And I choose the last. Teehee~ Sorry, Aunties!
For now, I'm only thinking about attaining even higher education and doing things I desire as well as making money. If we have money, we don't have to get married. At least, that's what I believe. 少なくとも、それがあたしの信じること。
My life goal is very simple. A cliché. A bit naïve perhaps. Owning complete, original series of One Piece comics and animations, and spending my money on its merchandise and stuffs like the fuck I want are my dreams (actually I also want to buy so many books, have my private fancy library, go around the world, say "I'll win you" to price tags, get rid of famine in certain places, make a change (angel-mood) and so on so on so on..........). In short, having one quadrillion pennies in my bank account. That's why I have to be one of those rich bastards (and of course being the very top among them) who go through life without worrying about money. あら、NGワード言っちゃってごめん。._. For such a goal, I don't need to be tied up with someone. I want a freedom to do what I please.
I can't guarantee that I will be doing things so smoothly. The future ... it just has a strange, magical, unpredictable power to change itself. Even with hi-techs nowadays. If I'm not responsible, I'll be screwed. Besides, there are so many possibilities in every choice. By marrying someone, perhaps, I still can gain my own freedom. I could have a free thinker, a faithful learner, maybe a writer, or even a simple, ordinary human being as my partner. He (well, or she) could be the first one supporting my passion. But there could be also a misfortune haunting me in case I'm married to wrong person or I can't take control. So, neither my aunts nor I have wrong belief and viewpoint. We're even!
I also have one more 気になった事 regarding this marriage thing (eh, why am I so formal?). I don't have time to count how many friends of mine who have gotten married young. There are so many, I guess. Or let's just talk about a much simpler matter; friends of mine who are always in relationship(s). Apparently there are still many people around me who value the 'eros' one so much, even if yes that's their own choice anyway. あたしには関係ないから。 Eheheh~
The case above got me questioning myself, have I gone too far from my own circumstances? I know there are a lot of women who feel that it's totally fine to never get married. I'm just the 84728946th female who thinks about freedom, money, and hobbies. But not here, not in my surroundings. I need to escape. Eeeh, I'm exaggerating and out of topic. But what I want to say is, people have varied. It's okay to do what you want to do or not to do what you don't want to do. あなたとあたしとは別の人間だから。
Revelation:
By going to 'this' particular university and having 'these' kinds of friends, I came up with all the thoughts. What you learn, who you get along with, that's what makes you who you are now. 笑笑 Right, right, thanks to them.
Well, first of all, I should be grateful for being raised in a family who values higher education, so I don't have to deal with my aunts saying, "You have to marry a rich man." It means they know well that I'll make my own money somehow. They only demand me to marry someone and bear children. But do they have to interfere in my personal life? Maybe yes. Maybe no. And I choose the last. Teehee~ Sorry, Aunties!
For now, I'm only thinking about attaining even higher education and doing things I desire as well as making money. If we have money, we don't have to get married. At least, that's what I believe. 少なくとも、それがあたしの信じること。
My life goal is very simple. A cliché. A bit naïve perhaps. Owning complete, original series of One Piece comics and animations, and spending my money on its merchandise and stuffs like the fuck I want are my dreams (actually I also want to buy so many books, have my private fancy library, go around the world, say "I'll win you" to price tags, get rid of famine in certain places, make a change (angel-mood) and so on so on so on..........). In short, having one quadrillion pennies in my bank account. That's why I have to be one of those rich bastards (and of course being the very top among them) who go through life without worrying about money. あら、NGワード言っちゃってごめん。._. For such a goal, I don't need to be tied up with someone. I want a freedom to do what I please.
HOWEVER
I can't guarantee that I will be doing things so smoothly. The future ... it just has a strange, magical, unpredictable power to change itself. Even with hi-techs nowadays. If I'm not responsible, I'll be screwed. Besides, there are so many possibilities in every choice. By marrying someone, perhaps, I still can gain my own freedom. I could have a free thinker, a faithful learner, maybe a writer, or even a simple, ordinary human being as my partner. He (well, or she) could be the first one supporting my passion. But there could be also a misfortune haunting me in case I'm married to wrong person or I can't take control. So, neither my aunts nor I have wrong belief and viewpoint. We're even!
I also have one more 気になった事 regarding this marriage thing (eh, why am I so formal?). I don't have time to count how many friends of mine who have gotten married young. There are so many, I guess. Or let's just talk about a much simpler matter; friends of mine who are always in relationship(s). Apparently there are still many people around me who value the 'eros' one so much, even if yes that's their own choice anyway. あたしには関係ないから。 Eheheh~
The case above got me questioning myself, have I gone too far from my own circumstances? I know there are a lot of women who feel that it's totally fine to never get married. I'm just the 84728946th female who thinks about freedom, money, and hobbies. But not here, not in my surroundings. I need to escape. Eeeh, I'm exaggerating and out of topic. But what I want to say is, people have varied. It's okay to do what you want to do or not to do what you don't want to do. あなたとあたしとは別の人間だから。
Revelation:
By going to 'this' particular university and having 'these' kinds of friends, I came up with all the thoughts. What you learn, who you get along with, that's what makes you who you are now. 笑笑 Right, right, thanks to them.
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