Showing posts with label Circumstance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Circumstance. Show all posts
「もしこの世界も人生もただの夢だったら、どうする？」とGさんから聞かれたこともあります。しかし、どうすればいいか分からず、結局返事ができませんでした。私の人生はこれまで楽しいことに恵まれてきたと思います。それで、Gさんがこの世界から消えたいとか、死んでしまいたいとか、暗い話ばかりするようになったとき、私はそんな気持ちが理解できませんでした。ある日、「僕にとってこの世界はただのイリュージョンだ。僕の人生も君の存在も、すべて現実的ではない。それに気付いた以上、もう何もしたくない」と言うのも聞きました。実は悲嘆に暮れて首吊り自殺をしようとしたことが二回ありますが、何とかまだ生きていました。しかし、その後Gさんは彼女の目の前で自殺したいと言いだし、そのためにノルウェーへ行くことにしました。（彼女がまた引っ越しました）それから二週間経っていますが、Gさんからのメールはもう来ません。まだ生きているのかどうか分からないのですが、Gさんとまた話をしてみたいです。
There was a sudden, perhaps an unintentional opinion, saying, "It seems that Indonesia has to become a secular country for good." Well, it ridiculously tickled me.
It all came from this talking point ...
... to this red-circled argument.
I've been thinking about this issue on my own. The relation between God and humans is a very personal matter. 他人は関係ない。 In certain conditions consisting of several people, the first principle in Pancasila (Belief in one and only God; Ketuhanan Yang Maha Esa) could mean: we apply religion-based principles in every element of our life. Some religion-based principles are often used to defend one's opinion without appreciating the fact that the government recognizes six official religions. The 'six religions' means that Indonesia could have various religion-based principles, depending on the followers of a (or some) religion(s) itself. This problem will never reach its end if people are being stubborn. If people don't read books. If they won't open their mind. If they won't discuss the things and exchange thoughts. I honestly have no idea at all about this ending.
I don't have the power to change a single thing. I personally think that it's fine to be secular. I said that the relation between God and humans is a very personal matter, didn't I? It has nothing to do with other people after all. In the end, there's no need to make Indonesia become secular. I can't, and I think neither can you. However, a person's right to choose to become secular matters. I love to see a person as an individual human being, as himself or herself or both, who has rights, and is not a part of any constructed group.
So, what if Indonesia became a secular country? I have no idea because it would never happen anyway. I let you consider it by yourself.
A friend of mine said, "Dari dua jam kuliah Filsafat Timur, penjelasan dosen yang masuk otak cuma bahwa pernikahan adalah kebahagiaan konseptual. Adanya rasa takut dan tidak nyaman dengan kesendirian membuat seseorang bersedia mengikat dirinya dengan orang lain." In short, she got a 気になった事 from her Eastern Philosophy class saying that the marriage is none other than a conceptual happiness. People are afraid of being single, so they give themselves willingly to someone in a union called marriage.
Hmm ... mmkay, I think I get the point.
When I got home a few days ago, I was trapped in an unavoidable conversation with my aunts. I don't (or simply won't) remember what exactly the chit-chat was. In the middle of the talk, I said that I don't want to get married and my aunts immediately, angrily, confusedly, cut me and said, "あかん!" LoL They condemned my unfavorable (they think so) opinion. Geez, I felt like being sued. Such Easterns, I thought. But I didn't even bother to defend my opinion in the end because I'd convinced myself to do what I believe is right. I'm a contrarian in the family after all.
Eh, I have to warn you something first. Let's not talk about pernikahan merupakan perintah agama or marriage is one of God's commands or something like that. I want separation here. 笑笑
Well, first of all, I should be grateful for being raised in a family who values higher education, so I don't have to deal with my aunts saying, "You have to marry a rich man." It means they know well that I'll make my own money somehow. They only demand me to marry someone and bear children. But do they have to interfere in my personal life? Maybe yes. Maybe no. And I choose the last. Teehee~ Sorry, Aunties!
For now, I'm only thinking about attaining even higher education and doing things I desire as well as making money. If we have money, we don't have to get married. At least, that's what I believe. 少なくとも、それがあたしの信じること。
My life goal is very simple. A cliché. A bit naïve perhaps. Owning complete, original series of One Piece comics and animations, and spending my money on its merchandise and stuffs like the fuck I want are my dreams (actually I also want to buy so many books, have my private fancy library, go around the world, say "I'll win you" to price tags, get rid of famine in certain places, make a change (angel-mood) and so on so on so on..........). In short, having one quadrillion pennies in my bank account. That's why I have to be one of those rich bastards (and of course being the very top among them) who go through life without worrying about money. あら、NGワード言っちゃってごめん。._. For such a goal, I don't need to be tied up with someone. I want a freedom to do what I please.
I can't guarantee that I will be doing things so smoothly. The future ... it just has a strange, magical, unpredictable power to change itself. Even with hi-techs nowadays. If I'm not responsible, I'll be screwed. Besides, there are so many possibilities in every choice. By marrying someone, perhaps, I still can gain my own freedom. I could have a free thinker, a faithful learner, maybe a writer, or even a simple, ordinary human being as my partner. He (well, or she) could be the first one supporting my passion. But there could be also a misfortune haunting me in case I'm married to wrong person or I can't take control. So, neither my aunts nor I have wrong belief and viewpoint. We're even!
I also have one more 気になった事 regarding this marriage thing (eh, why am I so formal?). I don't have time to count how many friends of mine who have gotten married young. There are so many, I guess. Or let's just talk about a much simpler matter; friends of mine who are always in relationship(s). Apparently there are still many people around me who value the 'eros' one so much, even if yes that's their own choice anyway. あたしには関係ないから。 Eheheh~
The case above got me questioning myself, have I gone too far from my own circumstances? I know there are a lot of women who feel that it's totally fine to never get married. I'm just the 84728946th female who thinks about freedom, money, and hobbies. But not here, not in my surroundings. I need to escape. Eeeh, I'm exaggerating and out of topic. But what I want to say is, people have varied. It's okay to do what you want to do or not to do what you don't want to do. あなたとあたしとは別の人間だから。
Revelation:
By going to 'this' particular university and having 'these' kinds of friends, I came up with all the thoughts. What you learn, who you get along with, that's what makes you who you are now. 笑笑 Right, right, thanks to them.
Well, first of all, I should be grateful for being raised in a family who values higher education, so I don't have to deal with my aunts saying, "You have to marry a rich man." It means they know well that I'll make my own money somehow. They only demand me to marry someone and bear children. But do they have to interfere in my personal life? Maybe yes. Maybe no. And I choose the last. Teehee~ Sorry, Aunties!
For now, I'm only thinking about attaining even higher education and doing things I desire as well as making money. If we have money, we don't have to get married. At least, that's what I believe. 少なくとも、それがあたしの信じること。
My life goal is very simple. A cliché. A bit naïve perhaps. Owning complete, original series of One Piece comics and animations, and spending my money on its merchandise and stuffs like the fuck I want are my dreams (actually I also want to buy so many books, have my private fancy library, go around the world, say "I'll win you" to price tags, get rid of famine in certain places, make a change (angel-mood) and so on so on so on..........). In short, having one quadrillion pennies in my bank account. That's why I have to be one of those rich bastards (and of course being the very top among them) who go through life without worrying about money. あら、NGワード言っちゃってごめん。._. For such a goal, I don't need to be tied up with someone. I want a freedom to do what I please.
HOWEVER
I can't guarantee that I will be doing things so smoothly. The future ... it just has a strange, magical, unpredictable power to change itself. Even with hi-techs nowadays. If I'm not responsible, I'll be screwed. Besides, there are so many possibilities in every choice. By marrying someone, perhaps, I still can gain my own freedom. I could have a free thinker, a faithful learner, maybe a writer, or even a simple, ordinary human being as my partner. He (well, or she) could be the first one supporting my passion. But there could be also a misfortune haunting me in case I'm married to wrong person or I can't take control. So, neither my aunts nor I have wrong belief and viewpoint. We're even!
I also have one more 気になった事 regarding this marriage thing (eh, why am I so formal?). I don't have time to count how many friends of mine who have gotten married young. There are so many, I guess. Or let's just talk about a much simpler matter; friends of mine who are always in relationship(s). Apparently there are still many people around me who value the 'eros' one so much, even if yes that's their own choice anyway. あたしには関係ないから。 Eheheh~
The case above got me questioning myself, have I gone too far from my own circumstances? I know there are a lot of women who feel that it's totally fine to never get married. I'm just the 84728946th female who thinks about freedom, money, and hobbies. But not here, not in my surroundings. I need to escape. Eeeh, I'm exaggerating and out of topic. But what I want to say is, people have varied. It's okay to do what you want to do or not to do what you don't want to do. あなたとあたしとは別の人間だから。
Revelation:
By going to 'this' particular university and having 'these' kinds of friends, I came up with all the thoughts. What you learn, who you get along with, that's what makes you who you are now. 笑笑 Right, right, thanks to them.
Akhir-akhir ini, seorang gadis–sebut saja Gadis–sedang ada dalam keadaan yang sangat bodoh; larut dalam kebohongannya sendiri. Dia selalu menyalahkan seorang lelaki–sebut saja namanya Lelaki–atas apa yang terjadi pada hubungan mereka. Gadis tidak ingin menyalahkan mantan temannya–sebut saja Mantan Teman–atas berakhirnya hubungan dia dengan Lelaki. Padahal Gadis tahu betul, jauh di dalam lubuk hatinya, ia tak pernah berhenti mengumpat kepada Mantan Teman karena menurutnya, Mantan Temanlah yang terlebih dulu berbuat jahat kepadanya.
Gadis mempunyai seorang teman–sebut saja Teman–yang belakangan ini selalu menjadi tempatnya bercerita mengenai hubungannya dengan Lelaki. Mereka berdua; Gadis dan Teman, sepakat bahwa dalam kasus ini Lelakilah yang salah. Lelaki terlalu percaya diri dan merasa bahwa dirinya sangat tampan sehingga seluruh wanita di Bumi dan Saturnus akan bertekuk lutut di hadapannya. Gadis dan Teman sepakat untuk menjadikan Lelaki sebagai tokoh antagonis dalam cerita ini. Oh iya, saya lupa menyebutkan bahwa Teman dan Mantan Teman berteman. Jadi, Gadis sekarang berteman dengan Teman, namun sudah tidak lagi berteman dengan Mantan Teman, tapi Teman dan Mantan Teman masih berteman. Jadi, di sini peran Teman adalah sebagai mediator–ah, tidak–lebih tepatnya seorang yang netral. Rumit, memang.
Namun sore tadi, Gadis menemukan sebuah percakapan melalui pesan pribadi yang disediakan Twitter yang membuat dirinya kesal seketika.
Ternyata...
Hati kecilnya memang benar. Mantan Teman memang seorang antagonis.
Walau mulut dan sikap Gadis menyatakan bahwa Lelakilah yang sepenuhnya bersalah, namun hati kecilnya mengatakan bahwa Mantan Teman juga bersalah. Dan itu terbukti.
Saya tidak perlu menceritakan isi dari percakapan singkat yang Gadis temukan. Kalian cukup tahu saja bahwa Gadis kini sangatlah kecewa, sekaligus bangga akan kebenaran hati kecilnya.
Gadis... Ia terlalu naif untuk mengakui bahwa ia tidak suka kepada Mantan Teman di hadapan Teman. Namun berkat kejadian ini, ia langsung berkata kepada Teman bahwa sekarang ia kesal sekali kepada Mantan Teman. Gadis tidak peduli tentang kenyataan bahwa Teman dan Mantan Teman masih berteman.
Tapi Gadis merasa lega. Itu kabar baiknya.
Dan kabar baik selanjutnya, Gadis tidak perlu merasakan kesal, kecewa, dan sedih berkepanjangan karena ada banyak hal yang dapat membuatnya tertawa.
End
Cerita ini sepenuhnya menggunakan pandangan saya sebagai penulis. Kejadian di atas memang benar-benar terjadi. Tapi, mungkin, akan ada versi lain mengenai alur dan perwatakan tokohnya jika kejadian tersebut diceritakan kembali berdasarkan pandangan dari orang yang berbeda.
Bulan Desember tahun lalu, sebuah epic drama dengan judul ‘Penjara’ dipentaskan di salah satu fakultas sebuah universitas di Indonesia. Drama tersebut mengusung tema kebebasan. Ya, kebebasan. Para aktor yang berperan sebagai tahanan merasa haus dan rindu akan kebebasan yang telah lama terkurung di balik kalutnya aturan. Namun, haruskah kebebasan itu memiliki eksistensi…… di sebuah penjara?
Ya sah-sah saja, kan? Mana ada manusia yang mau hidup dengan aturan yang membelitnya? Bahkan untuk seorang tahanan penjara sekalipun.
Jadi… aturan itu sebenarnya jahat, ya?
Bahkan segaris kalimat dari Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia pun mengakui itu. Bebas; berarti tidak terikat atau terbatas oleh aturan.
Pernah berpikir kenapa aturan itu bisa ada? Apakah jika semua perbuatan yang dilakukan manusia tidak diatur, dunia ini akan hancur? Entahlah. Jika dapat ditarik sebuah kesimpulan konyol, mungkin akan ada garis yang mengatakan jika semua manusia di atas bumi ini baik, maka aturan tidak perlu ada. Jika setiap manusia tidak kenal apa itu kejahatan, maka kebebasan akan tercipta.
Huh?
Bingung.
Tunggu dulu.
Enigma yang rumit, memang.
Maksudnya, jikalau manusia-manusia agung ciptaan Tuhan ini hanya mengenal kebaikan saja, maka, apa yang harus diatur dari setiap perbuatan mereka? Jika manusia hanya mengenal kebaikan saja, maka setiap perbuatan yang mereka lakukan tidak akan berdampak buruk bagi manusia lainnya. Segala sesuatu yang bebas mereka lakukan terbungkus rapi di dalam sebuah selimut yang lembut bernama kebaikan.
Kebaikan itu tidak perlu diatur, kan?
Yah… Walaupun dalam kenyataannya, di mana ada yin, pasti di situ ada yang. Di mana ada putih, di situ ada hitam. Pun di mana ada atas, di situ pula akan ada bawah. Semua yang ada di dunia ini ada kontradiksinya. Dan hal yang paling penting, di mana ada kebaikan, pasti di situ akan ada saja kejahatan.
Tapi, apa mungkin jika di dunia ini tidak ada yang namanya aturan? Apa mungkin di dunia ini manusia hanya mengenal kebaikan saja? Mmm… Mungkin saja! Kau bisa bebas berkhayal bahwa yang namanya aturan tidak pernah ada di setiap zaman yang pernah dihuni manusia mana pun. Kau bebas melakukan apa saja di pikiranmu. Ya, ya! Benar! Kepalamu, imajinasimu, itu adalah tempat yang paling tepat untuk mengetahui esensi akan sebuah kebebasan. Di sana, kau aman melakukan apa pun.
Bebaslah sebebas-bebasnya di sana. Tak ada aturan yang mengekang. Dan jika kau telah kembali pulang pada kenyataan, jangan lupa patuhi aturan yang ada.
Pikiranmu, negeri dongengmu. Dan, ya… Garisan kalimat di atas tadi adalah imaji kebebasan di negeri dongengku.
Nature...
Hear it...
Know it...
Bear with it...
Touch it...
Smell it...
Taste it...
Be it...
Yay! I've just finished my class, which was The Introduction of Japanese Culture, and now I'm in an awesome mood to tell you about the lecture.
It was about Fudo (風土), a concept of climate by Watsuji Tetsuro. He was a Japanese Philosopher who had made that Fudo concept, which explains us that every single part of world's climate relates with cultures and ethics.
You can browse more about Watsuji Tetsuro for further informations.
I won't write any longer about what Tetsuro's theory was; nevertheless, I want to share you what my lecturer had said that made me get an echo on my mind.
Hear it...
Know it...
Bear with it...
Touch it...
Smell it...
Taste it...
Be it...
Yay! I've just finished my class, which was The Introduction of Japanese Culture, and now I'm in an awesome mood to tell you about the lecture.
It was about Fudo (風土), a concept of climate by Watsuji Tetsuro. He was a Japanese Philosopher who had made that Fudo concept, which explains us that every single part of world's climate relates with cultures and ethics.
You can browse more about Watsuji Tetsuro for further informations.
I won't write any longer about what Tetsuro's theory was; nevertheless, I want to share you what my lecturer had said that made me get an echo on my mind.
Do you hear that? The solid ground, fresh grass, old oak, high mountain, pure river, the air... You know what? They could be known so well; also, you could've born with them. You could touch them, smell them and taste them.
Be Nature.
OKAY, THAT'S WEIRD! XD
