There was a sudden, perhaps an unintentional opinion, saying, "It seems that Indonesia has to become a secular country for good." Well, it ridiculously tickled me.


It all came from this talking point ...



... to this red-circled argument.



I've been thinking about this issue on my own. The relation between God and humans is a very personal matter. 他人は関係ない。 In certain conditions consisting of several people, the first principle in Pancasila (Belief in one and only God; Ketuhanan Yang Maha Esa) could mean: we apply religion-based principles in every element of our life. Some religion-based principles are often used to defend one's opinion without appreciating the fact that the government recognizes six official religions. The 'six religions' means that Indonesia could have various religion-based principles, depending on the followers of a (or some) religion(s) itself. This problem will never reach its end if people are being stubborn. If people don't read books. If they won't open their mind. If they won't discuss the things and exchange thoughts. I honestly have no idea at all about this ending.

I don't have the power to change a single thing. I personally think that it's fine to be secular. I said that the relation between God and humans is a very personal matter, didn't I? It has nothing to do with other people after all. In the end, there's no need to make Indonesia become secular. I can't, and I think neither can you. However, a person's right to choose to become secular matters. I love to see a person as an individual human being, as himself or herself or both, who has rights, and is not a part of any constructed group.

So, what if Indonesia became a secular country? I have no idea because it would never happen anyway. I let you consider it by yourself.





10:33 PM
A friend of mine said, "Dari dua jam kuliah Filsafat Timur, penjelasan dosen yang masuk otak cuma bahwa  pernikahan adalah kebahagiaan konseptual. Adanya rasa takut dan tidak nyaman dengan kesendirian membuat seseorang bersedia mengikat dirinya dengan orang lain." In short, she got a 気になった事 from her Eastern Philosophy class saying that the marriage is none other than a conceptual happiness. People are afraid of being single, so they give themselves willingly to someone in a union called marriage.

Hmm ... mmkay, I think I get the point.

When I got home a few days ago, I was trapped in an unavoidable conversation with my aunts. I don't (or simply won't) remember what exactly the chit-chat was. In the middle of the talk, I said that I don't want to get married and my aunts immediately, angrily, confusedly, cut me and said, "あかん!" LoL They condemned my unfavorable (they think so) opinion. Geez, I felt like being sued. Such Easterns, I thought. But I didn't even bother to defend my opinion in the end because I'd convinced myself to do what I believe is right. I'm a contrarian in the family after all.

Eh, I have to warn you something first. Let's not talk about pernikahan merupakan perintah agama or marriage is one of God's commands or something like that. I want separation here. 笑笑

Well, first of all, I should be grateful for being raised in a family who values higher education, so I don't have to deal with my aunts saying, "You have to marry a rich man." It means they know well that I'll make my own money somehow. They only demand me to marry someone and bear children. But do they have to interfere in my personal life? Maybe yes. Maybe no. And I choose the last. Teehee~ Sorry, Aunties!

For now, I'm only thinking about attaining even higher education and doing things I desire as well as making money. If we have money, we don't have to get married. At least, that's what I believe. 少なくとも、それがあたしの信じること。

My life goal is very simple. A cliché. A bit naïve perhaps. Owning complete, original series of One Piece comics and animations, and spending my money on its merchandise and stuffs like the fuck I want are my dreams (actually I also want to buy so many books, have my private fancy library, go around the world, say "I'll win you" to price tags, get rid of famine in certain places, make a change (angel-mood) and so on so on so on..........). In short, having one quadrillion pennies in my bank account. That's why I have to be one of those rich bastards (and of course being the very top among them) who go through life without worrying about money. あら、NGワード言っちゃってごめん。._. For such a goal, I don't need to be tied up with someone. I want a freedom to do what I please.


HOWEVER

I can't guarantee that I will be doing things so smoothly. The future ... it just has a strange, magical, unpredictable power to change itself. Even with hi-techs nowadays. If I'm not responsible, I'll be screwed. Besides, there are so many possibilities in every choice. By marrying someone, perhaps, I still can gain my own freedom. I could have a free thinker, a faithful learner, maybe a writer, or even a simple, ordinary human being as my partner. He (well, or she) could be the first one supporting my passion. But there could be also a misfortune haunting me in case I'm married to wrong person or I can't take control. So, neither my aunts nor I have wrong belief and viewpoint. We're even!

I also have one more 気になった事 regarding this marriage thing (eh, why am I so formal?). I don't have time to count how many friends of mine who have gotten married young. There are so many, I guess. Or let's just talk about a much simpler matter; friends of mine who are always in relationship(s). Apparently there are still many people around me who value the 'eros' one so much, even if yes that's their own choice anyway. あたしには関係ないから。 Eheheh~

 The case above got me questioning myself, have I gone too far from my own circumstances? I know there are a lot of women who feel that it's totally fine to never get married. I'm just the 84728946th female who thinks about freedom, money, and hobbies. But not here, not in my surroundings. I need to escape. Eeeh, I'm exaggerating and out of topic. But what I want to say is, people have varied. It's okay to do what you want to do or not to do what you don't want to do. あなたとあたしとは別の人間だから。



Revelation:
By going to 'this' particular university and having 'these' kinds of friends, I came up with all the thoughts. What you learn, who you get along with, that's what makes you who you are now. 笑笑 Right, right, thanks to them.
1:14 PM


Is there standard ordering when I want to use both question mark and exclamation point together? What is the difference between colon and semicolon? How to even use a hyphen? Where should I put commas in a sentence? Do they even matter? 最近気になるから。

I always want to write a perfect writing but I do flaws in the end, either grammatical errors or punctuation mistakes. Both in English and Bahasa Indonesia. Or even in 日本語. As long as we can digest the meaning, imperfect writing has nothing to do with. We don't have to mind them in daily conversation anyway. It's not like the comma, dash, and period should be spoken anyway. We don't say it, "capital H ey comma please throw me that red ball exclamation point" or "capital C an capital I help you comma capital S ir question mark" anyway. We simply say, "hey please throw me that red ball" and "can i help you sir" which will be like, "Hey, please throw me that red ball!" and "Can I help you, Sir?" in the written form.

Anyway, the paragraph above doesn't appoint what I want to say at all. Hahahaha. What I really want to say is ... that now I realized I've written tons of pointless babbles for the past five years. I feel like a teen. I was a teen. I mean, I hate teenagers. I hate myself who acted like a teen. Eh, however I had to pass this stage whether I like it or not. Eh, but I think I liked and enjoyed this stage because I sure acted like a teenager. My previous posts prove it so mockingly. I really want to erase them (I actually have deleted some super-extra-ultra-embarrassing posts) and start all over again. But what's the point? Who do I want to impress? Well, I made mistakes, I was disgusting and silly, but ... no buts. I admit it. Tch.


See? I have an issue with this "being a teenager" thing.


12:00 AM
I'm a normal human who will eventually die. But, if only one of them can fall in love with me, I guess I will die more peacefully.

12. Beberapa tahun ini, saya sedang jatuh cinta sama (re: suka stalking) tiga orang yang gak tau wujudnya kayak apa, soalnya saya kagum sama mereka lewat tulisannya; entah itu dari ketepatan EYD maupun esensinya. :')
34. Bicara soal fakta nomor 12, tiga orang itu adalah seorang role-player Bleach, seorang author di fanciction(dot)net, dan seorang blogger. Hohoho~

... were what I've written for "20+++ Fakta Tentang Saya" on November 19th, 2014. (WHICH has been deleted because now I think it sounds really silly) But when I said 'beberapa tahun ini', I meant it. I really did.

If you read/watch Nana, there's one character named Nana Komatsu who has trouble with having 'falling in love at first sight all the time' habit, isn't it? Well, I have that habit, too. I always immediately fall for a writer who can make my heart beat faster just simply by their style of writing. Sex doesn't matter. I don't mind if the writer is a male or a female. I love them. The writing is all that matters.

This 'seorang role-player Bleach' is one of the writers I love who has been doing role-play on Twitter for almost five years. He/she is really kind yet unreachable. He/she has a countless plot idea for role-playing and his/her style is so impressive. He/she can interact very well both in English and Bahasa Indonesia. I fell in love with his/her writing ideas. 完璧だと思う。I named him/her 'The Flawless One' eheheh~

'Seorang author di fanfiction(dot)net' is a male. I'm quite certain because I have done a research about him. Haha. At first, I didn't believe the fact that despite being a male, he has a damn good writing style with perfect Ejaan yang Disempurnakan (I mean, there's stereotype about that already and I rarely find a male who has a concern for punctuation things). The ideas of his stories are also very clever. I fell in love with the fanfictions he has been writing so that's how I end up loving him this much. I named him 'Blue Rose' eheheh~ Speaking of which, I found a new love I'd fallen for, for almost a year. She's a fanfiction writer, too. This time a female. I reaaaaaaaallyyyyyy love her. She's the best. Hahaha. I call her 'Purple Rose' :3

And lastly, what I do now is blogging so there's no way I don't have my favorite blogger. Hehe. 'Seorang blogger' is the most influential person for me to keep writing. I fell in love with this person's thoughts. I refuse to lose. I want to get better so I can surpass this person ... one day. I can't describe this person any further because, perhaps, this person is too crucial. I named this person 'The Holy One'  or simply 'This Person' eheheh~ (♂? ♀? I clearly know but I won't reveal it here)







I'm a normal human who will eventually die. But, if only one of them can fall in love with me, I guess I will die more peacefully. Like what has been said....

12:20 PM

This particular 元クラスメイト is a boy in his 20s who loves to take selfies. Not like I care, though. But, still, this phenomenon (LoL) is quite interesting to be posted here. Well, he added me as his LINE friend about a year ago. I bet he knew my account from 'that' group. When he posted about his 'Weight Loss' and 'Diet Plans' I was like, "Oh, pretty boy. 相変わらずですね。" (Ehhh, however everyone has their own right to do whatever they want to do) I didn't mind at all. 関係ないから。But, when I discovered that he always changes his profile picture, his full face taken by his own, like every single day, I started to get irritated. I mean, you litter on my timeline, idiot.

Apparently, he also loves to share his love-hate relationship shamelessly, at least once a day. If I'm not lucky enough, I have to roll my eyes at his vexatious babble four times a day. It's so damn annoying. Reading those pointless, worthless statuses is a waste of time. I need to stop it. So today I decided to hide him from my timeline. Hahahaha. What a fool I am, I should've done that yearsssss ago.

Oh, oh! I forgot to mention that his grammar really sucksssss. How can he be so confident of every wrong sentence he wrote? But that's none of my business. I know.














This is time for my alter ego..........

Man, he's an actor. Seeing his timeline always keeps me entertained. Good material to be made fun of.











If the said person reads this, sorry, I'm not sorry. This is my opinion. You can give your opinion about me as well. Once again, it's not like I care. Everyone is free to speak out.
5:10 AM
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